When you buy land or property from family, you feel an immense pressure to keep things as they are, to not change a damn thing ~ so much so that the very sight of things from the past creates an oppressive weight on your chest that makes it hard to breathe, & makes you want to turtle under the covers sucking your thumb or a vodka bottle.
When Puffy & I purchased our first home, it was a family deal. It seemed to me that everything we changed, or threw out, or any talk of renovations was met with a look of distaste & disapproval. As much as I lurved that house, it never felt like a home to me as this one does. The past wouldn't let go.
Now Lizard is well on her way to being free of the past.
Well, this & the crack epidemic.
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